My last blog…ever
First of all I would like to say that I am genuinely sorry to all the people that I have left behind, but unfortunately none of you can know what it is like to be me and to struggle with all the things that are going on in my head. I did not do this because it I thought it was cool or to get back at anyone or to call anyone’s bluff. I did it because I cannot continue to live the lie that I am living.
It is probably a bad thing to say, but I will always hold the British Government, its National Health Service and local Health and Social Services departments responsible for at least some of what has happened to me. If adult Asperger Syndrome and ADHD could be managed successfully in this country, then maybe I would have had a much better life and none of these things would have happened. But this is not the case, people continue to get no treatment or the wrong treatment which just makes their lives worse. I firmly believe that everyone could have a place in society if they had the right help.
I would be grateful to anyone who could take my case “beyond the grave” so to speak and use it to show how the system has failed me and others like it. I am sorry if its not all as pressworthy as it could be.
I have wrote things like this many times before, but failed to carry them out for one reason or another, this time I know that I can’t do anything to fix what I have done. I told people in good faith and they betrayed me. Ultimately, I was the one who broke the law, there is no denying that, but wouldn’t it have better if they tried to help me rather than get me into trouble?
To my family, friends and all the people who have known me, I am sorry and good bye.
Seth